A new start...

Everything seems like a dream... But I still seems to be wandering around in a endless road where there's still no crossroad...

I often have this kind of image inside my mind... I saw myself wandering endlessly on a road, where I am alone, feeling lost and helpless, I do not know what I am suppose to do and where to go. No one is around to give me any aid or guidance...

I often tell myself that I have to submit everything to God, let Him lead the way and to believe that He who is the Savior of the world will be there for me always. Alot of people has been entering my life and leaving without saying "Goodbye" and life seems to just be like a marathon when I am running along while these people are the road posts

I never knew how silly I could be until I met a girl by the name of "Mrs. Pig". She has been someone really special, always give me encouragement when I seems to be falling from the verge of life, cheer me up when the world seems to be in complete darkness. Everything seems to have been just a hallucination and the costs of realizing all these, is really painful.

I guess I have learnt the lesson of not relying on any human being soul but myself because the greater I rely, the deeper my feelings got, the badly I will end up being hurt. Knowing that one day I have to wake up from all these, I guess I still rather continue to be like a Sleeping Beauty. It's painful, but I rather I deceive myself now than burying myself in great pain.

17th of November, a really important day which marks the start of my assessment. I can't afford to lose concentration at this time, have to really focus and strive hard. I have gotta give my best shot!